smallershellee

ok i have to say i need to put the scale away. i get on it like 4 to 5 times a day its crazy so i really starting to think i need to hand it to my ten year old daughter and say hid it and dont let mommy have it untill my weigh in date. as crazy as that sounds its like a drug almost and i dont want her to think u have to behave that way either that u must always have ur weight on ur mind.

im just 12bls from my goal weight, i started this thing not to be super skinny or anything close to that i just wanted to be healthy. i wanted to keep my curves im down 58bls and its like a dream i never thought would come true. all my hard work in the last 4 months is paying off. i know its going to be hard with thanksgiving and all but we will see.

im so hungry i want to eat so much,,, help

ok so I took like 2 weeks off from the diet and the gym. i gained 3lbs back (sad). But I did great today I went to the gym did an hour and a half, and I ate very healthy today low low cals. I have to stay on track here 50lbs is to much to give up on now, I got the twenty left to go that I want to drop by my birthday on Jan 30th.

ok, iv lost 51lbs and now that im 19lbs away from my goal weight iv desided to go back to school. i never finshed high school, i got married then had a baby at 17. so now that im divorced and almost to my goal weight i see i can do anything i put my mind to. getting my ged is going to be hard. its hard for me to admit to my freinds and co workers that  i never finshed most of them would of never guessed. iv been studing for my pre test for about 3 days and i have to admit common sence which i have is far different then book smarts. i find myself thinking ill never know the square root of anything so why learn it. but my question to myself is am i taking on to much with trying to lose the weight and going back to school i dont want one to suffer for the other i guess. wish me luck

wow what a bad day for bad news, frist of all for u who dont know my brother has been sick for 6 years he is dying, he had a ct scan today and it didnt go well. then my ex husband got laid off today so that means that he will not be making as much so my child support will drop. he is welling to pay me what the court says he needs to put that leaves him with zero bucks so i cant do that either he is so good to help me with the kids he keeps them everyday after he gets off. so my really bad news is that because ill not be getting as much money ill have to drop my gym memebership i so love going to the gym iv lost 51lbs and i got 19 more to go i cant give up now. i know people lose weight all the time without the gym but i know ill lose my motovation

good morning all my buddy slim friends i met my 50lbs weight loss mile marker yesterday and while my bf was worried why i was as happy as he thought i would be or my mom i guess i wasnt really happy at all i mean i should be i should be proud of myself as while i am proud of myself i guess im just tired of getting up at 6 am going to the gym tired of while my friends eat cheese burgers i get to have a salad. feels like i still have so far to go. i want to drop 20 more pounds my goal was never to be skinny like a stick i love my curvys i just wanted to be able to not have to think of my weight first when i did something like tomorrow im doing a breast cancer walk and i would of never had said yes to only being i knew the the tshirt u have to wear is an ex large and i couldnt wear it or i had to tell my kids no i cant ride that ride because i was afrade i wouldnt fit. so keep the good thoughts coming im almost there thanks all

ok im one pound away from the 50lbs lost mark.  i hope to do it by monday 5lbs would be nice but oh well. i so cant wait for my halloween party. i went shopping today had fun. i still feel very insecure like last night my boyfriend said he wasnts to go to a stip club for his birthday and im like feeling am i not enought. maybe i just dont understand.

well no weight loss this week. dont know how that happened. iv lost atleast 2lbs per week since i started almost 4 months ago and now nothing. i didnt do anything really different i went to the gym i just feel like saying crap lol. oh well ill keep my head up and keep moving along. will not be on tomorrow night go my baby coming to stay with me. have a good day everyone

ok my not so cal weekend is over time to start back. got the hit the gym in the am the work. cant wait for my halloween party its going to be so much fun. i hope u all had a good weekend. on a down side my baby boy had a dog bite him at his dads this weekend on his face it looks so bad. hurts to look at him. i asked him about getting his hair cu when i picked him up and he told me when he looked normal again he would. how sad is it in a world we live in that my five year old son is worried about looking normal. what is normal anyways. and who whats to be normal not me.